Taking time to enjoy my little wonders...

I'm having a conversation with my friend about the importance of savoring the time I have with my loved ones and taking time to enjoy my life now since it will soon all change. And I can't help but think that although right now my priorities are on school and work- I have let other things slide away to the non-priority list. But I wish I hadn't. I'm not even far away from home yet and I'm already feeling like this and I wonder how much will change or stay the same once I'm done with school and on my own. Inshallah this coming school year I'll work less and make more time for the things and the people that are important to my life.

And as I'm having all these thoughts-the perfect song comes on my pandora to sum it all up; as if my playlist is in tune with my thoughts and feelings. O' how I love my pandora.

< His voice gives me goosebumps:) >

Little Wonders by Rob Thomas

Let it go, Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't You know, the hardest part is over?
Let it in, let your clarity define you
In the end, we will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

Let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine, until you feel it all around you
And I don't mind, if it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by, it's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made in these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours still remain

All of my regret, will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget, the way I feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders, these twists and turns of fate
Yeah, these twists and turns of fate!

Time falls away, yeah but these small hours
And these small hours still remain, yeah
Ooh they still remain
These little wonders, oh these twists and turns of fate

Time falls away but these small hours
These little wonders still remain

What tomorrow may bring...

Tomorrow I'll be waking up for Fajr Inshallah. n then not going to bed like usual; but instead reading my Qur'an and then studying till class. New Project/Goal. Im gonna keep up with it!

Choosing not to become the person your family expected is painful. You have to leave their world completely just to make sense of your own life, and then fate lures you back whenever it can to give you the chance to measure the distance between their world and yours and see if it’s still just as far as you remembered.

This American Life

Toronto Babey!!

I have been waiting since practically January for my Trip to Toronto to arrive. And now finally i just have a week and a half more Inshallah. Bre-A-thhh! Gonna try to get through what's left of classes with a smile and then board my plane and let the RELAXation sink in. Inshallah, Inshallah! Hopefully this Amazing city brings with it Exactly what I have been craving for.!.

Coward!

My Dad hasn't spoken to me in precisely - A Week. It was  around this time last saturday-when he spoke to me last. He's been ignoring my phone calls throughout the week. He just called me: to ask me about the basketball game and who won.?

Some dance to remember, some dance to forget.!

Friends silhouetted, originally uploaded by Mojo....

Beautiful friend,
You are not fine. You keep lying to the world and yourself. He may not know how much damage he actually did to you. But I know. I know the constant fear you live in. The way your always ready to protect yourself. The way your no longer calm, but constantly on the edge when your around men. The way you don't like hugs anymore, or anyone getting too close to you. The way you shutter when any man looks at you as if he wants to devour you. I know why you always choose the same type of guys. Ones that will have the power to hurt you. I don't blame you, because- You don't know any better.

Dear friend,
I can't tell you that things will go back to the way they used to be. Because for sure they won't. He did something to permanently change you. I'm sorry friend, for the way he treated you, for the marks-tempoorary n permanent that he left on you. I aplogize for him never taking the chance to see your beauty, your strength, your wisdom. But trust me friend- you are strong, you are intelligent, you are beautiful. And friend you don't have to worry about a thing-cuz i'll never let him get to you again. Ill never let any other man ever bring you down that low. Friend- you'll always have a space with me. You are always welcome here-ur safe place- where no one can ever get to you. The least I can do- is promise you that much-throughout our lifespan together.

Sincerely, Rain

Everytime it rains at night with the cool, wind breeze-like it is now. It reminds me of this feeling, this one memory-but i can never put my hands on it. Its a distant feeling, but it brushes up on my nostrils and triggers at my mind as if its right in front of me.

So i find myself sitting in my car-windows down, listening to the drops of rain and the gusts of wind, enjoying, exploring my memories, and letting the rain seep in to me.